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When I was 15 years old and got to ride a moped with my grandfather. We were up at Uncle Ib's as day laborers. Grandfather said that it was very common on the farms in his youth that Hermann had a right to the wedding night and when the maids became pregnant as a work injury, the highest ranking man was offered a sum of money to marry the girl and travel away. That's how he and grandmother started on Grønøj. a disused farm without light and pump on the farm. So my mother left the 7th grade. Worked as a kitchen girl at a high school. 2 years before I was born, she ended up on a fishing boat in Hirtshals harbor. Where she was raped by 7 boys in turns while she was held down. The boys were 13 - 18 years old. It was very violent and was in all the country's newspapers as news. My father, who was a violent brother, beat all 7 of us one by one. A few years later, the rape case came to the high court when I was 1.5 years old. I had been forcibly removed from my mother. Because my pram blew up in the harbor several times when my mother was partying on a ship. She had a dream of becoming a chef on a steel boat. It didn't work out that way. She got pregnant with a farmer's son who was dyslexic. She had 3 children with him. We were very poor and moved often, living in miserable conditions in the countryside. When I was 6 years old, Bjarne came into the picture. We children could see a triangle drama when 2 men came out of the bedroom. There was a lot going on at that time. My 3 youngest siblings went to an infant home in Hjørring. Søs and I were taken into care by my aunt Inger and her husband. 6 months later, Søs and I went to an orphanage. Where I was for 1.5 years I became strange after an assault by a 15 year old who wanted to have oral and anal sex with me. I stayed home after the summer holidays and started in the 3rd grade in a small school. Mom was pregnant again. Flemming only slept 3 hours a day. I didn't find out until years later. That same year I was hit by a car on my way home from the grocery store. I had 2 skull fractures, 1 open and 1 closed. I had hit a street sign with my head and was thrown out onto the road at a dangerous intersection on the village square. I was in a coma for 1 week. It was a long summer holiday. 1 year later I had surgery on my ear, there was a bone blocking my ear canal. We lived in that house for 3 years. while I was in 3rd, 4th, 5th grade. In 6th grade I broke my jaw.

Da jeg var 15 år gammel og fik lov til at køre knallert med min bedstefar. Vi var oppe hos onkel Ib som daglejere. Bedstefar sagde, at det var meget almindeligt på gårdene i hans ungdom, at Hermann havde ret til bryllupsnatten, og når tjenestepigerne blev gravide som arbejdsskadede, blev den højest rangerende mand tilbudt et pengebeløb for at gifte sig med pigen og rejse væk. Sådan startede han og bedstemor på Grønøj. En nedlagt gård uden lys og pumpe på gården. Så min mor forlod 7. klasse. Arbejdede som køkkenpige på en gymnasium. 2 år før jeg blev født, endte hun på en fiskerbåd i Hirtshals havn. Hvor hun blev voldtaget af 7 drenge på skift, mens hun blev holdt nede. Drengene var 13-18 år gamle. Det var meget voldeligt og var i alle landets aviser som nyheder. Min far, som var en voldelig bror, tævede os alle 7 én efter én. Et par år senere kom voldtægtssagen for landsretten, da jeg var 1,5 år gammel. Jeg var blevet tvangsfjernet fra min mor. Fordi min barnevogn eksploderede i havnen flere gange, da min mor festede på et skib. Hun havde en drøm om at blive kok på en stålbåd. Sådan gik det ikke. Hun blev gravid med en landmandssøn, der var ordblind. Hun fik 3 børn med ham. Vi var meget fattige og flyttede ofte, og levede under kummerlige forhold på landet. Da jeg var 6 år gammel, kom Bjarne ind i billedet. Vi børn kunne se et trekantsdrama, da 2 mænd kom ud af soveværelset. Der var meget gang i den tid. Mine 3 yngste søskende kom på et børnehjem i Hjørring. Søs og jeg blev anbragt af min tante Inger og hendes mand. 6 måneder senere kom Søs og jeg på et børnehjem. Hvor jeg var i 1,5 år, blev jeg fremmed efter et overgreb fra en 15-årig, der ville have oralsex og analsex med mig. Jeg blev hjemme efter sommerferien og startede i 3. klasse på en lille skole. Mor var gravid igen. Flemming sov kun 3 timer om dagen. Jeg fandt først ud af det år senere. Samme år blev jeg ramt af en bil på vej hjem fra købmanden. Jeg havde 2 kraniebrud, 1 åbent og 1 lukket. Jeg havde ramt et gadeskilt med hovedet og blev kastet ud på vejen i et farligt kryds på landsbytorvet. Jeg lå i koma i en uge. Det var en lang sommerferie. 1 år senere blev jeg opereret i mit øre, og der var en knogle, der blokerede min øregang. Vi boede i det hus i 3 år, mens jeg gik i 3., 4. og 5. klasse. I 6. klasse brækkede jeg min kæbe.